NEW LAPTOP

Hahaha I am so happy today because I am rewarded by my parent with a new laptop .Sure its not an expensive laptop like my other friends but a RM1500 laptop is more than what I ask for.I am grateful with what I have been rewarded because now that I have a new laptop I can update my blog anywhere I wanted to.Beside if I have the chance I would be going to pursue my studies and ofcourse there would be a lot of assingment so with the laptop I wouldn’t have to spend my time in the cyber cafes instead I could do it in the comfort of my room.Well the laptop has a ram of 3GBDDR3 so it is good for gaming with graphic card of 1GB well I am sure to install a lot of games into it so that I can enjoy it to the fullest but I am dissapointed by the rating though it is only 4.1 in rating but I guess it will have to do for now HEHEHEHEHEHE

HUNT FOR THE SCHOLARSHIP

SPM has just ended and I thought this is my big break but was I ever been wrong .Now I have a bigger challenge I have to find scholarship so that I will be able to proceed with my study either overseas or even in Malaysia .Now most scholarship will look upon the result of the spm although it hasn’t came out yet but the student have to struggle to find ways to get the scholarship .I have been to the FACON education fair that was held at the PWTC  last Saturday and Sunday but not many of them offered scholarship .Sure there are some that offered us scholarship but most of them is course in hospitality and thing like that .What I wanted to search for is scholarship in law or medic .But before I can get to that I would have to go trough pre-u first meaning I have to do A-level or foundation in science well I guess that there are no shortcut for us .Well I guess I have to work harder than so see ya

FREINDS

 It is sure is hard to get a friend one of this day .Because nowadays sometimes the friend you have is not really a friend because a friend is someone who is willingly to be there for you in your hard times .But most so what we call friends these day only there when we are in good times but where are they when tears start to flow from our eyes no one knew .For me I am willingly sacrifice my own happiness just to see my friends to be happy even If they never said thank you or even know that it is my doing that they end up to be happy for me seeing their smile is rewarding enough for me .

Some say it is a stupid move to make but what else can I do even though I had to hurt myself to be hurt in the process it is at least I can do because it is not a guaranty for me to be happy if I make the other choice so lets just stick with making somebody else happy .But sometimes I thought to myself when will I have happiness if all of it I gave to my friends .Well lets just hope if all my hard work in making my friends happy will ending up to making me happy one day I will wait until that day comes

 People somehow afraid to show their true nature to others this is because some of them are scared that they would be condemn or just simply being laugh at .But for me what that is a big mistake although you are though and all but you wanted to show your soft side its okay because that’s the  way you are .For me is wrong for someone to judge other people because they are not up to their expectation .You have to respect their self as they are because every people is special and unique in their own ways .Like me although at time I can be strict and I meant for everyone and there are no exception for friends and family but I also like to  write poems and reading novel but that’s is the way I am and all my friends and family can accept that because that is who I am .They didn’t even condemn me instead they encourage me they gave me books and even my friend post my poem in the internet some of my poems are also used into competition example for the competition between form 4 classes during teachers day my poems was used to show gratitude for the teachers and I felt so happy because they accepted the poem I wrote .I am sure lucky to have friends and family who understands me for who I am and didn’t wanted me to change even the slightest bit .I hope everyone in the world could become like this and accept me for the way that I am until that day comes I would just be myself

AN UNKNOW PERSON

  For a boy who is an adolescence or shall we say in teenage times it normal for them to like girl .It goes the same for every boy y s including me .In my time there is some girl who I had a liking to in the past even now .I want to share with about this but don’t tell anyone else especially ag students.

  Lets start of with someone I once liked in the past shall we .She was a friend of mine it all started back then when I was still in standard one .we were never close back then because she is smart and popular and all but I am no one there people didn’t even realize my existence there .After finish primary school I had continued my studies in SMK Seri Keramat  .What surprised me is that even though she is an excellent student she went to the same school with me even more surprising she is in the same class as me .After a while I started to become friends with her then I got a hold on a piece of valuable information I knew the boy that he liked .I tried to set them up but when it had been a success I had a terrible feeling of sorrow around me I fell empty inside my heart that is when I realized that I had fall for her .But their relationship do not last very long .So I feel relived I became close to her very close but unfortunately I dint think that she liked me so i never told her that I had feeling for her . As time passes by we had got good result for the pmr and went our separate ways .I got into MRSM and never had seen her faces ever again but we still kept in touch by phone it is just that the feeling I had for her had fade away.

  Now it’s the time when I was in the MRSM .It was in the first day that I entered the MRSM I had met with the members of my homeroom which is like a step family .I had a saw a girl in my homeroom who is very pretty at first I haven’t got the guts to talk to her but she is my homeroom and I always use that reason to get to know her better .As time passes by it was already our final semester and I  still haven’t confess my feelings towards her .One day I wanted to see her face to face so that I could express my feelings towards her but my heart began to crumble down into million of pieces as I got to know she had liked a boy who is my friend .Figuring out that she also liked the boy maybe it is the best for her maybe she would be happy with him so I kept my mouth shut and let them have a happy life .In front of her I always put on a smiled so that she wont suspect a thing even though it is killing me inside .But one day when it was two weeks before the spm in class I saw a girl who had made my shattered heart a whole once more .She is an excellent student though but she is quite friendly and I think that she had noticed me always looking at her in class but this does not meant that I am not focused in my studies ok maybe a little bit but I am still can manage it well .Now that we had finish SPM I tried to get to know her and I hope that this time I can express my feeling towards her

A LITTLE SOMETHING

WELL THIS SOME THIS JUST SOMETHING THAT WAS RUNNIG THROUGH MY MIND

The night was a pin drop silence,

A figure in the dark  searching ,

For a lost treasure which had long been lost

Only with the light shone by the moon.

He searches high and low,

He left no stone unturned,

He had climbed the highest mountain,

He dive into the deepest sea.

His effort was unrewarded,

He just couldn’t find the treasure ,

He sat down on the corner of the room,

He cried his lung out because of his failure

From a distance he saw a figure of a person,

As it came closer it shows a figure of a girl,

The frown that he had changed into a big smile,

The tears of sorrow now became the tears of joy.

The girl held out one hand for the boy,

She gave him the treasure that he was looking for,

It was his heart  that the  girl had stole ,

He quickly hug  the girl as he was glad that his heart was once again his

But once he got his heart it was full of emptiness,

He called out to girl with all his might,

The girl turn her back to him,

And the boy gave her his heart to keep it safe and sound

A CAT ON AG

Everyone has their favorite animal. For me is the feline family but I don’t meant tiger and leopard although they are pretty cool but one wrong move may cost you your live. So I went for the little one just a normal cat is enough for me .At my college there is one cat who severe sight problem we gave her the name pako this is because she is always hyper active running around climbing wall jumping here and there .For me every living things is the same she is always got left behind by the other cat in our school .I thought to myself maybe this is the only way that she could obtain attention from us .Unlike the other she has a small body maybe because the other cat stole her food who knows she never told me anything . One thing that surprised me is that one day she came on to me and start sucking on my finger maybe because she wanted milk so I went to get some milk from my friend to gave it to her .She waited patiently as thought she knew that I was going to give something to her she just look at me with those eyes of her. Once I gave her the milk she quickly drank it up and after that she lay down and close her eyes and fell asleep not long after that .Although she seems all tough but there is time when she seems to be friendly or was just me .But know I don’t know what will happen to her as there would be no one to look after her anymore ,no one to play with her ,no one for her to bite with her little sharp fangs of hers and no one to give her food and milk anymore .I just that she will grow into a strong cat and capable to look after her self .Goodbye and good luck pako